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Luvenia Kalia
This year started out fresh. I made a stupid mistake because I was lonely and I was worth nothing. I am not the person I used to be and I wish that was a good thing. My confidence is burried somewhere in the past. So deep, that I can't reach it anymore. I wish I knew how to be that confident Luvenia I used to be. My social circle expanded this year. I feel like I have been jumping from circle to circle because I am afraid of emotional drama but somehow it always happens. Maybe being on my own just works for me. I can't help feeling like something is missing. Like I could do so much better than I am.
This time was different, it was way more special , it ment a hell lot to me but it ended due to impulse and misunderstanding. I can't help thinking that we could have been something. That we didn't let it happen. I blame myself completely and well things just don't happen the way you want it to sometimes but it was a few of the happiest moments of my life.
"If this goes in, we are ment to be"
This time was different, it was way more special , it ment a hell lot to me but it ended due to impulse and misunderstanding. I can't help thinking that we could have been something. That we didn't let it happen. I blame myself completely and well things just don't happen the way you want it to sometimes but it was a few of the happiest moments of my life.
"If this goes in, we are ment to be"
Luv
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I have been ignoring the fact that I have a blog. Probably because I was too busy living this life that I have. Everything has been, absolutely insane. In 2010, I stayed in love, i stumbled and stumbled. I regreted, I suffered , I got through hardship. You know what , this year is going to be different. I made the mistake of falling, falling hard not as bad as the last but it was real. It was something. As fickled as this person may be. I knew I didn't want to loose him. Not as a friend. Maybe a part is gone but everyone needs a friend and I will be there for him no matter what.
I will be blogging. =)
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Woman by birth , cheerleader by choice.
Youth jam, the apparent talk of the month? Penang cheer conference? The last minute add on. I really hope this gets star to bring back northern region=) Well, here goes everything.
Vivacious,
Cheryl is leaving me to the lead the squad for the event. For some reason I just lack the confidence. So much potential but how are we going to bring out the best in them? My love for the squad, and my faith in my fellow cheerleaders is truly stronger than my own self confidence. Vivacious, we are going back next year , stronger and better than ever. For Penang, For SGGS, for the team, VIVACIOUS!
VIVA LA VIVA,
let's kick some cheering ass =)
*no idea what that means.
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Sleep
I so realised that I need to talk to someone before I sleep. What is better than talking to a skinny white guy who looks like chicken little and stay halfway around the world =) It is so much better than any regular bedtime story. =)
lindsey, you perv =)
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Rollercoster of life
Yes, I haven't been blogging.
My blog is a flow of my emotions,
and now, they are all gone,
my emotions.
This year,
I experienced the lost of many companions, many loved ones.
It is either I loosed them by the separation of different world but our souls stay connected.
Or i loose them by soul but we could see each other every week?
To stitch,
I miss you sweetheart.I will miss all the beautiful babies you made. Now, pretty is all alone needing more attention than she can get.
To tiny,
What made you leave? I don't know. I would have been able to take your cold body to the vet but I wanted to see you for the last time. I am sorry I was not there for you baby. I love you =( I remembered when you were the little one. You were the first born but the smallest out of all. We kept you, thinking nobody would be able to take care of something so small. It was a brainstorm thinking of a name for you until we went to the vet and we realised how small you were on the weighing scale and I said "tiny"! You overjoyed little thing. Wish you were here.R.I.P
To Adrienne,
Your lost was like a natural disaster. You meant so much to many people. Due to the tributes on facebook that was proven. You leaving us made us hold hands, share sorrow and collect tears of people we have never met before. We had it the way you wanted but I am sorry I couldn't be as happy as you wanted me to be. He misses you and I will do whatever I can to make him a happier person. R.I.P Adrienne Lim.
I had to take a candid because you would never let me take a picture.
Thinking about them makes me wonder how many more I am going to loose?
but thank you. To all who have made me happy,
and thank you lindsey! You have no idea how much you cheered me up just by having a long conversation of 6 hours to start my day =) miss you loads!
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Come home.
A dog, that wasn't all he was to me.
He was, he IS family.
Do you ever have no one to talk to?
That you talk to your pet.
I have.
Because they look at you with their big, round, watery eyes like they understand.
Like they are trying to comfort you.
It is strange.
Call me crazy but I believe he understood me.
Now, he is out there. Kidnapped? Alone?
I don't know.
To whoever took him, I hope they look after him.
If he is still out there,
Come back, I miss you =(
My friend, my companion, my baby....
COME HOME.
As a baby....
With his babies....
COME HOME,stitch.
I miss you!
Luv
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Walking away?
Usually everything occurs one by one.
Not this time.
This time it is like a big fat slap across my face.
And I am a wall.
The wall in between heaven and hell.
I am torn in between the two.
I am in the centre of everything.
One after another.
Everyone is breaking, falling and slowly dying.
What am I doing?
Watching, for I have done my best to help in every way possible.
So now breaking that wall and letting hell and heaven collide.
I am walking away , walking away from the troubles in my life.
Thank you Craig David for showing me the way. =)
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
"I am sorry you watched my cry and thank you for holding me in your arms and sharing all my sorrow and showing me where I truly belong, right there, with you, at that very moment. A moment that I will cherish forever"
I wish deep down I was Scarletina.
Luv
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